Your mercies in disguise

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

"Blessings" by Laura Story

We have felt overwhelmed by the love and support of our family and friends over the past week. From the emails, to the meals, flowers, edible arrangements, and more- we have really felt incredibly loved. For those that don't already know, last Friday, Dustin and I went for my 12 week appointment at my OB. On the way to the appointment, I was already envisioning the creative blog post I was going to write when we came home to announce it to "the world". God had other plans. We were told that the baby no longer had a heartbeat and had stopped developing. As the ultrasound technician said those words, I was thinking "She can't possibly be saying this to us"- but she was. In that very minute, the hopes and dreams and plans that we had for this baby ended with the stillness of our little one on the monitor. Because I was so far along and my body had not gone through the actual miscarriage yet, I had to have a procedure called a D & C on Monday. While I would not wish this experience on anyone, I know God has a purpose for it. When babies stop developing, it is most likely due to a chromosomal abnormality or developmental problem and the baby most likely would have not been carried to term or could have been born with incredible challenges. I feel that the job I have gives me a firsthand look at these children and what these families go through every day. There is a beautiful video called 99 Balloons that gives an inside look at what many families I know go through. While this has been a heartbreaking experience, I know that it was because God thought it was more important for our "little buddy" to be with Him now and He could have been sparing us from further pain later on. Thank you all for your continued support and prayers during this time. Through all of this we know God is still God and God is still good.

"God gives. God takes. God's name be ever blessed."- Job 1:21